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Wednesday, May 10th, 2006
3:03 pm	I'm sad and mad, but most of all disappointed in myself. I always said that I wouldnt let a man affect me in the way jon has. So the news is jon and I broke up or as he says taking a long break. I'm sad but stupid for thinking it would last. I love him , but he just doessn't understand woman at all or life. We have a child and he thinks that it's a toy not a human-being maybe he's missing an inspiration in life, but jon seriously needs help. I do hope that one day he figures things out,I guess I'll be there to help him, but i doubt that he asks for it. So news is norma is coming home, well welcome back home Norma, hope to Party with you in the next couple of weeks althogh with school and work and of course Zoe there isnt much time. Current Mood: drained Current Music: oldies (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Thursday, December 15th, 2005
6:58 pm	JON Happy b-day Jon, Love you Lots and thank-you for our beautiful daughter and the great times that we've shared. I hope you have fun this year and that I'm part of that fun Serafin call me for plans on friday (Comment on this)
Monday, December 5th, 2005
12:48 pm	Norma you left So I'm at work nothing to do I started at 12 and the Doctor is getting here at 1 and the patients get here at 2 awesome day huh! I'm out of here by 6 So I'm finally going back to school it's gonna be weird. Jon is acting like a dick big surprise Norma you left without saying goodbye or a see you later I called but your cell-phone was fucked up I called you on saturday to go to the movies with Serafin and Jon and you were gone, me so sad :( Current Mood: horny Current Music: christmas music (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Sunday, July 31st, 2005
10:55 pm	I'm happy I've been looking for help in all the wrong places (my family) Sometimes the people who know you the least lend you a hand Hocpe to see the world again WEird Dream about Claudia getting an abortion because babies were going to be paralyzed hmm... Current Mood: cheerful Current Music: Shakira (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Monday, July 25th, 2005
8:51 pm	What a disappointment I've become. I'm sorry Norma I was the only cousin you had that was going to do things the RIGHT WAY. I'm worthless I'm not who I thought I was, I'm weak I'm lonely and I'm ashamed of who i've become. I've realized that I dont know how to let go of things mostly people. Althogh I love my daughter and I wanted her and I thought everything would of worked out, but I should of known since he left me alone in the dark with 5 dollers in my pocket all for a beer and some spikes. could of should of it's always to late Doesn't life suck Current Mood: disappointed Current Music: Shakira (Comment on this)
Tuesday, May 24th, 2005
7:44 pm	Wuz up! Long time no read Lets see it's been 9 months since I last updated what have i done hmmm... Had a baby!!! Yes that's right I had a beautiful baby girl which I named Zoe Emily Pizano, she was born March 8th 2005 weighing 7Lbs.6oz and measuring 19 3/4 inches Besides having a baby i believe I've done nothing else I'm planning to go back to school next spring,hopefully it won't be very hard to adjust I'll post some pics as soon as i figure out how to Current Mood: anxious Current Music: Star Wars (Comment on this)
Tuesday, August 24th, 2004
10:19 am	My night adventure So yesturday was my first class in college- It was great My first class was philosophy,I have a great professor and I can't wait till we get working( I know I sound geeky) So the night begins! I set off on my mission to pick john from work I wait I wait and finally he is out, I said yah it's early will grab a bite to eat, my hungry ass didn't eat anything all day so I was cranky. Passing 26th and pulaski my car decides to throw a tantrum and turn off on me. We walk to my aunts and they don't have a phone I see Ralph and he lets me borrow his phone, Serafin comes to the rescue! (Thanx by the way Serafin) We call Danny to see if he can help and he can't of course. We go to his house and Andre and him are practicing, Oh Yah BEFORE WE GET THERE I BANGED SERAFINS DOOR INTO MY EAR, NICE GOING PATTY. So there is lud drums and guitars and my ear feels like its bleeding and every noise hurts it. John of course is being insensitive and decides to chill and take a beer or two. I leave the room and he doesn't notice it. I go outside and sit on the steps for about an hour before he comes out,by this time I'm really angered with him, but I don't yell. I wanted to go home he wanted to stay, figures! So stupid Patty tells him that she is going to leave on the bus he says fine and walks back in the house, and Patty starts walking in the middle of the night down 25 and Sacramento. This is where is all begins!!! I walk to the gas station to get change, while I wait on the corner of 26th and Kedzie I keep a look out to see if he comes, well he doesn't. An hour later the bus gets there. The bus arrives at the train station, a half hour later hop on the train. I get to Halsted and i hop on the bus immediatley. I walk home and DUN DUN DUN! I have no Keys. Good one Patty, So I walk to 35th hoping that there is a payphone, well there isn't, there is only a bar full of guys making their usual rude comments. I'm right by the store when a man pulls up to me and .... (Comment on this)
Saturday, June 19th, 2004
9:22 pm	People Say Week after week Day after day Hour after hour Minute after minute Second after second... Having you in my life has brought a true smile to my face, Having you has brought great pain with tears, Having you I've lost everything, but gained the world. Everyday that goes by I lose you more and more Your right I don't feel what I say I do, I'm sorry. This doesn'tmean that I don't care for you This just means that there is more for me to see. As usual I' scared, but I'm looking forward to it. Friends, hmm... Is that what we call them these days? What is it that makes a friend? Does a friend help you because they can or because they think it plays a role in the relationship? Is this a friend? You change, they leave. You fimd happiness, they hate you for it. People say. (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Saturday, May 22nd, 2004
8:16 pm	prom pics (Comment on this)
Friday, April 23rd, 2004
9:30 am	Jesse! Wierd Jesse licked my face, he is a sick sick man I say. (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Monday, April 5th, 2004
9:00 am	Hmm... In physics and she walks in all sad looking. I ask her whats wrong. She looks at me and says nothing. I figure they did poorly or barley miss it. I ask her how they did. She looks at me with a disappointing face and says *smile* We came in 2nd seat were going to TOC's. I was happy for her, but I know they don't deserve it. I can't say that I regret it, but for a split second I was mad and jealous. I don't know if it is God's way of punishing me or it is a result of my stupidity. I can say that I'm gonna regret it , but hey to some people dignity comes before success. She tells me that you don't respect me, and that you don't love me,for a minute mI actually believed it. Many things went through my mind,times when i thought you showed you did,times that she spoke about that we might had,which we did. Things you said to me kept repeating in my head, but I didn't believe her, in my part it might be true, but in your part I know it's not. He doesn't speak to me, he doesn't even look at me. I fond out that he has a girlfriend. Today my work is done and he smiles at me. So many things that go on everyday that so many of us think is important,when at the end it won't make a difference.We all live we all die.Like Kanye says we all cover our insecurities with objects that society tell us will make our lives better. We can't face the truth,known of us ever do what we truley want to do, we always try to make people around us happy because we want to be ladies and gentleman(those who make people around them as comfortable as possible)because it is the corret thing to do, but most of us end up unhappy because than we ae also trying to make them happy, were all fake and ungrateful unhappy people.The few that manage to get out of this realm are labled disrespectful bastards. Current Mood: crushed (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Thursday, February 26th, 2004
8:22 am	Hmm... Life This wonderful thing called life, you work so hard and you get your prize and than it's taken away from you, who would think. Life has it's disappointments more than its pleasures.I lost one of the most precious mthings in life this week. I thought I was going to be ok I thought I was going to be the strong one and see the glass hal full not empty, but I can't. I see life being pointless, what i had to offer i lost. If i can't make him happy than who can i make happy? Current Mood: pensive (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Tuesday, February 17th, 2004
7:49 pm	Me Happy! Yup Patty got into UOM, I wasa a little worried since i had gogtten into all the other schools except for UOM and today i got ther notice, here i come Michigan I'll see you in a couple of months, anyone is welcomed to come and visit it's only a 5 hour drive shorter than SIU so *sticks out tongue and genaro* Current Mood: cheerful (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, February 4th, 2004
6:49 pm	It's funny you would think that I would be hapy cause I got into Norte Dam, but I'm not I jumped up and down when I got my acceptance letter to Urbana, so guess what Norma you might have a another buddy down there this September.Isn't it funny how they tell you that they do believe in you and that they know certain things abou you, but when you tell them something you would think they would take seriously, they don't believe you and they want you to pove it to them hmm.. I wonder why Jon (4 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, January 28th, 2004
12:28 pm	Semester is over Anyone want to join in the Party! Hey Norma do you want any compnay this weekend? No school on Friday so if it's not UOI than it's Rockford. So the semester is over. I talked to Delaney today I didn't do that bad this semester I got the highest score on the final, yah Calculus is a bitch, but hey my math skills came into to play when I decided not to study or review. (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Tuesday, January 20th, 2004
8:18 pm	New Life So he's happy, figures ;( I knew that once i gotten myself into a routine again, he would be fine with everything. I got an acceptance letter today from MSU, at least i have one school that is willing to take me in. I got alot of fee waivers. if I don't get into UOM than I guess I'm going there Wheni opened the package I was happy, but of course sad. I don't want to do this to you, but it's something that I have to accomplish for myself. It's sad that my life goals revolve around peoples doubts of me. I wish I can say that I'm doing ti for myself, but I can't lie. The last time that I spoke to you about this I convinced myself that it was for my benifet not for others, but now that i've gotten it, I can't help thinking that this is what I 've been waiting for, this is the part where I have say YES! this is the time where I'm supposed to be jumping up and down of joy that I get to leave this piece of shit home, but I'm not I'm sitting here in the Library doing h/w to benefit others. I've learned so much from you, but as days go by I feel that others have become a stronger influence on me. Current Mood: content (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Friday, January 16th, 2004
1:05 pm	People said to watch out for him I walk into the school and they ask me for my dress waiver and I said i lost it. They call him down to come for me, i ask for help and he smurks rolls his eyes and says NO!*Walks Away* I knew humans can be cruel and selfish, but I never knew that I was going to encounter someone like that who i trusted in so much. Once your no use to them they turn their backs on you and stab you right in the back. Many people are surprised by my decision, but not because their concerned ,but because I'm no use to them, and I'm no one to them anymore It's my stupid fault for being so blind, not family not friends no one has been there in he times that i need them the most, they simply turn their backs on me and hope, and keep their faith in others, however their are no others. Current Mood: frustrated (Comment on this)
Friday, January 9th, 2004
6:16 pm	I havent updated in a while too! So she tells me those were the good old days*LOOKS AND ROLLS HER EYES* (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Thursday, October 23rd, 2003
8:33 pm	hmm... The only limits to our realization of tomorrow will be our doubts of today" (Comment on this)
Tuesday, October 14th, 2003
8:34 pm	LIFE Life is not measured by the number of breaths we take, but by the moments that take our breath away. (1 Comment |Comment on this)